foodsux4 (November 30, 1999 at 12:00 am)

hey hun!i know exactly how you feel..i recently got drs off my ass..it feels good to have freedom..you should try to give yourself motivations..that's what really helped me.i know recovery is the scariest thing to think about..till this day, i'm scared to death of fully letting go of the ed..but i just try to think about being happy and HEALTHY being healthy doesn't necessaraly mean "fat"anywayswrite to me if you need support..i'll be glad to help you through it<3Regg.

mette1983 (November 30, 1999 at 12:00 am)

STAY IN RECOVERY! I know it´s soooo hard and I myself have wanted to give up a million times because I have such a hard time accepting the target weight, BUT it will get better. I promose you. Usaually when I have my fat days I keep myself very busy with school work, watch tv and stuff like that so I remove my focus from my body! stay strong!

Ksteena92 (November 30, 1999 at 12:00 am)

thankss =], i'll try.you hang in there too !i love watching your videos.

Ksteena92 (November 30, 1999 at 12:00 am)

thanks for commenting =] I know recovery is the right thing, its just really hard to convince myself sometimes.!

imjoy393 (November 30, 1999 at 12:00 am)

OMG you sound so much like me, not too long ago. The two sides...what I've FINALLY come to realize in my heart not just my head, is, that recovery is what really takes strength. Not eating/purging is the easy way out, the weak thing to do, the real failure. My ED always suggests that eating is failing, but it can't be because it's so much harder :)Besides, who wants to be an empty zombie again? I want to grasp my life with both hands and hold on to it TIGHT, and I can't do that when I starve

PopGoThePeaches (November 30, 1999 at 12:00 am)

it does seem like you r happier with yourself when anorexia has a hold,but over the years I have seen in myself the stark contrast between how much more personality I have when i eat and how much a shell of a person I am when Im hungry. We just lose our bounce. recovery is worth it!hang in there x

PopGoThePeaches (November 30, 1999 at 12:00 am)

there will be so much more room in your head and in your heart for people,love,and fun,without your ED there too.I know how frightening it is,Iv relapsed 3 times in the past,& am once again at the point where Im going to have to start consdiering treatment.Like you said...

Ksteena92 (November 30, 1999 at 12:00 am)

lol no i didn't use a script:P I wasn't really planning on making a video but it just happened!i think i like it better without one =]

k10dance (November 30, 1999 at 12:00 am)

Did you use a script for this video? it seemed alot more natural and relaxed. Hang in there, you can beat this =]