GymnastBrit3 (November 30, 1999 at 12:00 am)

Yea. I know it's a bad thing. But knowing it is makes it worse. I feel like I can't help myself even tho I want to. It's crazy. It kinda gets to you after a while.

FranFromBrazil (November 30, 1999 at 12:00 am)

Sorry about your Grandpa.The fact that you see it's serious is already a big thing. Most people don't realise they are sick until it's too late.

majussu (November 30, 1999 at 12:00 am)

for Xmas break,and hope the change of environment will be helpful and I'll try to start over new.And yeah, it's only 2 hr drive away from Chicago,wohoo,so we're gonna be close and maybe this will be kind of support...Rrr, or not...LOL haha,but anyway, I will be definitely thinking about you hoping you are doing well, and if you feel anxious or depressed or whatever, don't hesitate to write me. Or go spend money on urself-it helps.Yesterday I spent $80 on make-up and it made me happy for a day =)

majussu (November 30, 1999 at 12:00 am)

oops,it doesn't let u exceed 500 characters...So yeah, I'm desparate about eating healthy.I watched ur other video,that for some reason is not there anymore,sorry can't remember exactly what it was abt,but u were REAALLY upset.I'm not gonna say it's ok,BE STRONG and HEALTHY, screw that. It's not ok,and i feel the same at times,and i just wish i could do smth for u to feel better.But it's another day, it'll pass, I just wish we could make it easier...And I'm leaving to MI in a few days, which is

majussu (November 30, 1999 at 12:00 am)

yayyy, i didn't expect a video, but it's sooo cool, thank u!!! Sorry I took long to respond, but I've been meaning to write you, just had to think about what to say. I am really sorry about your grandfather, those moments make you realize so much stuff. Umm, psychologist... not sure about that, I think talking to a psychologist would make me feel defective, plus they are too expensive,at least over here. I know I'm THE ONLY one who can put food in my mouth,but it's still SO f***ing hard to do!!!